This stuff is killing me

There are many things that one can enjoywhen being a human.
Like being able to smile and buy playstations , blow up things and in general make a mess of everything while claiming to save the world.

But in essence, life is a quagmire of philosophical black holes. ethics morals and all that stuff. the only people who buck and give in to the rules and regulations and live life according to some ' code' are ' normal' and those who live by something else are ' weird'.
At the end of the day, most of us compromise and dont live the scintillating ideal of a life that we always envisioned.

as some elders say : ' life aint fair, the earlier u digest it , the better'

but why not ...
why isnt the DAMN thing fair?

its supposed to be 'MY' life!!
I am supposed to be King here. Do what i like and have some fun [or die trying] there are many impositions of the 'right' thing.

what some one has already done and 'succeeded'. what 'people' mostly do. what nobody would choose to do in my situation.this is pure insanity. i am living my life based on others parameters of what is correct or not. and if i dont follow/ question the path ; then its the usual answer its 'good for you'. F*** good for me!! is it fun enough?? [ mind you i m not asking for persmission to chase anything or consume anything]. i just want to be able to take a walk when i feel like it [usually daytime].

i cant do that..

this rant will shortly be about nothing. but thinking back i might be able to feel a little relieved at least that i did give some thought in this direction if not act upon it.

hope to see you people soon..

in a better mood perhaps