For someone special....

It has been a time since I have been wrestling with myself in that familiar old battle. To Say or not To..
However these words never cease to flow. For her, For myself and now for US. Hopefully all will be well soon..

It is Springtime and I see in myself an engulfing darkness. As my being plummets into the depths, I grapple helplessly between slow pragmatism and an urgent whim. It is an oft repeated theme in my life; that, I find myself being hemmed in on all sides by a set of sudden circumstances..

As these melancholy thoughts surround me , the last whiffs of jasmine float by me from my cooling tea. In the glass I see a lonely jasmine afloat in a golden pool, a lonely hope; beautiful although in a sea of indeterminate beauty..

Its been my only solace for the last few days .

As the moon tiptoes across my window to avoid incurring my wrath. Today, I am not angry, for he's a shy fringe, a sliver of hope and cold friendly light , a window open to both of us and in him in trust this message :

for her..

who IS..

sleep my dear, sleep
let not worries crease your brow
my heartbeats, the summer song,
to ease your hearts sorrow.

sleep my dear sleep,
for the moon shines in vain,
tonight
my love, shant see him
waxing eloquent,in lovely pain,

sleep my dear sleep
in my hearts hollow
shall come again on the morrow,
weekend of bright bliss and childish light,
not the adult's Grey pain and hopeless blight.....